Le sigh...
Sep. 20th, 2002 02:13 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
bluejeans07BLARRGH IT DELETED MY ENTRY!!!
Well, okay, I'm just going to keep typing, whatever.
I was just saying that I'm looking forward to Ani-MAgic, I just want to ESCAPE! Although I'm only going for a day, it's still better than NONE AT ALL. I'm taking my homework with me as well -_- Really looking forward to actually MEETING Crispin Freeman face to face, I had been e-mailing him since the age of fourteen X_X I'm pretty psyched about meeting Scott McNeil and Kirby Morrow there as well since I loved their work on Gundam Wing!!! I do want to do something special for my dear friend who is in the hospital, surprise her with a call from Duo and Trowa! I can't wait to hear her excited voice on the other end of the phone!!
I'm just feeling tired of everything. I want to rest, I want to sleep, I want the energy to actually CARE about the artwork I'm doing, they're all fuggin copies of other artists, I don't feel inspired. I just feel drained and depressed because I'm not doing what I want... I just copy from Raphael's or other Master artist drawings, I'm not being trained to think originally, inspirationally. It's about technique now and it just feels so cold to just COPY all the time. Worse is the fact that the copying takes time so I can't do my own work except for quick doodles here and there.
Maybe I won't bring my homework to Ani-Magic after all, and just bring my own art stuff and have my fun drawing for other people. It's too late to ask for an Artist Alley table this year, but next year, I do want to be part of Artist Alley. I've always wanted to do it, and although I know it's hella arrogent to think this way, I felt that my stuff was up to par with everyone else's (if I wanna be REALLY arrogent, I'd say that my stuff was better than everyone elses' BWA HA HAHA). I want to show my stuff. I want to surprise people with my mad art skillz, I want to publish my own dang manga, or at least be hired to draw for people for lots of money! I wanna do what I love! I want to do art my own way, my own style, and still be loved by others.
Why am I feeling depressed? Why is it that I just want to sit in a corner and cry?
I love the library, at least here I can have a lil peace...
Well, okay, I'm just going to keep typing, whatever.
I was just saying that I'm looking forward to Ani-MAgic, I just want to ESCAPE! Although I'm only going for a day, it's still better than NONE AT ALL. I'm taking my homework with me as well -_- Really looking forward to actually MEETING Crispin Freeman face to face, I had been e-mailing him since the age of fourteen X_X I'm pretty psyched about meeting Scott McNeil and Kirby Morrow there as well since I loved their work on Gundam Wing!!! I do want to do something special for my dear friend who is in the hospital, surprise her with a call from Duo and Trowa! I can't wait to hear her excited voice on the other end of the phone!!
I'm just feeling tired of everything. I want to rest, I want to sleep, I want the energy to actually CARE about the artwork I'm doing, they're all fuggin copies of other artists, I don't feel inspired. I just feel drained and depressed because I'm not doing what I want... I just copy from Raphael's or other Master artist drawings, I'm not being trained to think originally, inspirationally. It's about technique now and it just feels so cold to just COPY all the time. Worse is the fact that the copying takes time so I can't do my own work except for quick doodles here and there.
Maybe I won't bring my homework to Ani-Magic after all, and just bring my own art stuff and have my fun drawing for other people. It's too late to ask for an Artist Alley table this year, but next year, I do want to be part of Artist Alley. I've always wanted to do it, and although I know it's hella arrogent to think this way, I felt that my stuff was up to par with everyone else's (if I wanna be REALLY arrogent, I'd say that my stuff was better than everyone elses' BWA HA HAHA). I want to show my stuff. I want to surprise people with my mad art skillz, I want to publish my own dang manga, or at least be hired to draw for people for lots of money! I wanna do what I love! I want to do art my own way, my own style, and still be loved by others.
Why am I feeling depressed? Why is it that I just want to sit in a corner and cry?
I love the library, at least here I can have a lil peace...
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*waves an offer*
Date: 2002-09-20 08:55 pm (UTC)You won't get paid money, but.. I do know someone who will pay you very handsomely for it. ;)
And we might get a few extra souls in ;D
Interested??
Nee-chan
Re: Uwaaaaaaaaah
I am looking forward to seeing you at AM!!!!!