Serendipity...

After watching it... well I'm still watching it... I've decided that it's my most favorite romantic movie. It feels so... ordinary in a way, it's not like the actors are incredibly gorgeous or romantic, or that the situacion is particularly outstanding... but the way it feels, the looks, the romance, the utter insanity that happens to tries to keep two people apart and together at the same time... it's beautiful ^^ I wanna snuggle under a blanket with my love and sip a cup of hot cocoa while watching this.

This is the worst time ever to be a girl. Right now, I'm in the headachy stage of the whole lovable cycle. I'm just not healthy right now and losing large amounts of blood doesn't help any. I have to keep pounding at my sketchbooks and stupid letterform projects... I had to shelve the letterform projects so I could keep pounding at my sketchbook, but with this headache pounding at my head, I just can't work. I want to curl up and be babied right now but there's no time and no one to baby me.

Just two more weeks, Jean. Just two more weeks.

What I want at the end of all this... I want a beautiful, romantic night for two with Rey. Somewhere different, exciting and I want to feel like I'm flying through the sky, free of burdens. I want to be surprised. I want romance.

I guess that's why I keep renting romantic movies, read fanfiction... hell, I even picked up a romance novel yesterday. I must really crave it right now. It's silly to be jealous of a roleplay... but I am because I want to feel it again. I want to fly again.