Ponderings...
Nov. 17th, 2003 11:01 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
bluejeans07I've been wondering why so many people tell me that I'll understand when I'm older. Understand WHAT? A good deal of my friends now are older than me, considering my school's average age is 23-25 and a lot of cosplayers are older than me... but what am I supposed to understand??? Life? Sure, I'm only nineteen right now but I have gone through some life experience that make me feel like I'm a more mature human being, not saying I'm completely mature but I must be a certain way there, right? Right??
*hears crickets chirp*
I mean, if so many people who are older than me want to hang out with me, it shows I'm mature enough to hang out with them too, ne??
Anyway, I also have a favor to ask anyone who is interested. I've been writing a Gundam Wing fanfic for awhile and it's slightly autobiographical. I'm very passionate about it and there is this one chapter where one my beta readers and close friend tells me that it's just not realistic because I lived it and wrote it on a biased point of view (a character based on my father yelling at a character based on me). My arguement is that the character is only BASED on my father, but I took his character and ran farther with it to make him even more harsh. What also pushes circumstances is that this character has a homosexual son who he disowned for that reason, I don't think my dad would do that since they always told us that no matter who we are and what we do, they would always love us.
Anyway, I want to send that chapter over to anyone who is willing to read it over and tell me in an honest, nonbiased opinion what they think. Two of my beta-readers are close friends who were there when I went through that difficult time in my life, but they never saw what my parents said or did to me so they always took their side instead of mine. Not saying that I WANT the non-biased reader to take my side, but I just really want to know what they think and if I really vilified the character to the point that it isn't realistic.
Note: I slightly based my fic on an AU GW fic called 'Coffee Shop Encounters' that's on the 'Death and the Dragon Archives', especially the scene where Heero's parents come and disapprove of his engagement to Duo. My character is based more on Heero's mother while my father was the ground basis for the character.
Just reply here and let me know! Thankies!
*hears crickets chirp*
I mean, if so many people who are older than me want to hang out with me, it shows I'm mature enough to hang out with them too, ne??
Anyway, I also have a favor to ask anyone who is interested. I've been writing a Gundam Wing fanfic for awhile and it's slightly autobiographical. I'm very passionate about it and there is this one chapter where one my beta readers and close friend tells me that it's just not realistic because I lived it and wrote it on a biased point of view (a character based on my father yelling at a character based on me). My arguement is that the character is only BASED on my father, but I took his character and ran farther with it to make him even more harsh. What also pushes circumstances is that this character has a homosexual son who he disowned for that reason, I don't think my dad would do that since they always told us that no matter who we are and what we do, they would always love us.
Anyway, I want to send that chapter over to anyone who is willing to read it over and tell me in an honest, nonbiased opinion what they think. Two of my beta-readers are close friends who were there when I went through that difficult time in my life, but they never saw what my parents said or did to me so they always took their side instead of mine. Not saying that I WANT the non-biased reader to take my side, but I just really want to know what they think and if I really vilified the character to the point that it isn't realistic.
Note: I slightly based my fic on an AU GW fic called 'Coffee Shop Encounters' that's on the 'Death and the Dragon Archives', especially the scene where Heero's parents come and disapprove of his engagement to Duo. My character is based more on Heero's mother while my father was the ground basis for the character.
Just reply here and let me know! Thankies!
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Date: 2003-11-17 12:28 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-11-17 02:12 pm (UTC)<3
p.s. i hear that all the time too. annoying much. but hey i'm older then i was a year ago and so many things were magically made clear at the hour of 11:58 on january 24 (my b-day) *end sarcasm here* really though...i guess things do change as we do, and some decisions, thoughts, feelings we have, mature even more, and so our concept of life and the world around us may be more...something...but if anything i don't think that who we are as somewhat young people should be denounced, because our view of the world is equally as valid, and our interpretation, and ability to understand, is not as limited as many feel.
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Date: 2003-11-17 03:45 pm (UTC)Yeah, that's how I've been feeling, but I am thinking how things might change once I get free of ACCD... =/ Besides my artwork kicking ass XD
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Date: 2003-11-17 06:23 pm (UTC)